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I lay dying, and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal

---Here I am beside myself again
I’m torn apart by words that you have said
and all in all, I know we’re falling apart
Where did you run to so far away?

And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep against the windowpane
Just like always

You said you like to hear the rain sometimes
and all I can do is tell you the truth
Oh my eyes will tell you the same

And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep again

And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep again

Grasp our hands together, we feel we are one result (x4)

And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are asleep again (x3)

---One devotion, to an empty moment
“Can you stay tonight?”
Silence broken, with words unspoken
Now she’s on her knees,
“No more feeling so useless, can I beg for one more?” she said
Taking with arms wide open, longing for sleep again

The air is clearing; again we’re breathing
Water turns to wine
The day is tired; the night’s inside her
Now she is alive
“No more feeling so useless, can I beg for one more?” she said
Taking with arms wide open, longing for sleep again

But now I’m awake (x4)

Keep breathing, to feel something
Take my breath away
Away, away, away
“Feeling so useless, can I beg for one more?” she said
Taking with arms wide open, longing for sleep again

But now I'm awake (x4)

---Playground school bell rings again
Rainclouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing
Hello
I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here, all that's left of yesterday

---She had something to confess to,
But you don't have the time so look the other way
You will wait until it's over:
To reveal what you'd never shown her
Too little much too late

Too long tryin' to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world

Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more than you could ever give
I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you yeah
And I'll do it on my own

I have played in every toilet but
You still want to spoil it
To prove I've made a big mistake
Too long tryin' to resist it
You've just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world

Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
I don't want you to adore me
Don't want you to ignore me
When it pleases you yeah
I'll do it on my own

I'll do it on my own
And I'll do it all by myself
You will never make it

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I hate feeling this. I hate questioning this. I hate doing this.

So tired. SO SO FUCKING TIRED.

Nights like this make me want to run my fucking car off the road. Or shoot my fucking brains out. But instead I'll probably leave myself some fresh scars for the morning.

I'm so fucking fed up. I want to be strong. I want to get fixed. But you have to know what the fucking problem is in order to overcome it. And, I have yet to figure out the problem. I need some fucking help....

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